Saturday night, after a long week of daily anxiety attacks and a visit to the ER, and an overnite stay, mom, along with the rest of us, were at the end of our strength. Love had been praying, we'd all prayed and yet, there was something deeply wrong with mom. She felt like there was a 'heavy brick' on her chest, couldn't breathe, heart pain and numbness in her arm. But this was not a heart attack of the physical. It was a spiritual attack.
I was weary, frustrated and useless to fight this 'thing' any longer. I stood at the kitchen sink, repenting for my impatience and anger towards her. The enemy attempted to lie that she was just trying to get attention, when in reality, she really was dealing with forces beyond her understanding.
I desperately needed 'back up' support. I phoned my dearest friend in KY and asked for agreement in prayer. My sweet friend asked if my mom really was a believer and I said I did not think so, even though she 'went forward' and said she believed in God. I promised to ask mom. We prayed. I hung up the phone and took a deep breath.
Gently prodding to get to the heart of the issue, I asked mom to be honest with me about whether she really knew she would be spending eternity in heaven. Her response, "I hope so." At that moment, she recognized that she didn't know. The truth finally came out. The source of the weight was her fear of dying and not really knowing where she'd be. The 'brick' on her chest was sin and the goodness of God was poured out to deliver her from it! I told her about 1 John 5: 13 , John 17:3 and several other verses and then we prayed. My mother repented and invited Jesus Christ into her life. She then asked my father to forgive her for the ways she's treated him over the years that were not kind or loving. Dad cried, hugged her and told her he forgave her. That moment will forever be etched in my mind.
As I reflect on His goodness over the past week or so, I want to encourage anyone 'fighting the good fight of faith': do not let go or give up! In your moments of frustration, stop. Take a deep breath and listen to what the Spirit in you is saying about your attitudes, your heart condition at that moment-because it may have absolutely nothing to do with you-and then remember that our enemy roams around seeking someone to devour. Humbly turn the circumstance over to the One who knows the answer and if need be, call someone to stand with you in prayer and EXPECT the God of the universe to show Himself strong on your behalf.